Macey Gates: Sister Macey Gates // Week Forty-Five

Familia, i'm just going to be honest and say this week was absolute hell for me hahaha Im sorry how everything happened but i don't regret anything. To sum it down, one of my companions was super mad we were being put in a trio and didn't even give the other Hermana a chance. She faked being sick every single day, like throw up sick. She would lock herself in our room and talk with our district leader for 2 hours about the real problems she had and the bad thing is, is that she is in love with our district leader. We tried everything to help her out and we would get yelled at and criticized for everything we did. We asked her if we could go buy some sprite for her and she said that was way to much pressure. We asked if we could get team-ups so that we could go out in work, and she said that was too much pressure. She would always talk with the STLs that were living with us, and then they would come criticize us. So we finally had to tell them they needed to stop getting involved cause we need to communicate in our companionship and work everything out, but we were so super nice about it and they agreed. We were told that the investigators in Jurupa are her investigators and not ours, we had no right to have a say in anything. We went to a lesson without her cause she wanted to hang out with her best friend in the mission, so we found out this person that we visited had doubts about the book of mormon and so we told this companion that and she got so mad and said it wasn't true. We went and visited an 8 year old we were teaching and she didn't come cause she had to go on splits to hang out with someone else cause she couldn't handle it, and we and my other companion decided maybe we should drop him. So Sunday night we were doing our weekly planning and we told this companion our thoughts about dropping him and if she had any thoughts, and she started swearing at us, telling us we don't know anything, that these are her investigators not ours, she threatened my other companion to give her the phone or she would do something she shouldn't, it was so bad. So she marched out of the room(we were at her aunt and uncles house) And i don't even know who she called. We me and my other companion were trying to decide what we needed to do. So we went out and looked for her and she was sitting with another missionary that stays at her aunts house and said she needed to talk to my other companion by herself. I was so scared for her, i walked back inside with the other missionary and just started bawling, and all the other missionary said to me was talk it out. So i did and she just listened and then we said a prayer. I felt so comforted in that prayer. Then i decided that this missionary who was doing all this needs to handle it herself, she needs to call president and work all her problems out and we will back her up. She then came in the room with one of our AP's and he couldn't believe this was still happening, he told this companion that she needs to figure it out and all of us too. We then said how we felt, i told hermana that i feared not anything for me but her. I told her that what ever has happened in the past that she needs to forgive herself, or she wouldn't get better. She said she didn't know how and we decided she needed to go to therapy. She apologized to us and i think it was so easy to accept the apology because i love that girl so much and all it is is that she NEEDS help. She had like 3 anxiety attacks, this week, it was just ridiculous. She told us she has no desire to follow the rules, thats a problem. Pray for her please!!!! We got home sunday night and made goals, we are turning everything we do to the lord. Monday morning was the first morning she has got up at 6:30 probably on her mission. We pray every hour together, and we are trying to be grateful for everything cause she hates when we are positive. I love this Hermana so much. I just want the best for her. And everything i've said isn't even half of it but i wanted to let you know somewhat how it was. BUT none of that even matters. The savior covered ALL of what happened, and he has allowed all three of us to change, to learn our weaknesses to become strong. To learn to trust in each other and our heavenly father and savior. We decided its unfair to give each other unfair expectations. Just because i'm positive all the time, and i expect this Hermana to be positive doesn't mean she can change that by tomorrow. This is a gospel of change but it takes time, we must be patient with one another and help each other reach their goals. BUT she is doing better, and i'm so willing to help his Hermana. I know i got put with her for a reason, to help me change.

Some other funny things that happened, this lady's daughter in our ward was having a baby and she would call us every day saying she was at a 10 and we needed to go to the hospital to pray with them, we did that so many times this week, and every time was a false alarm ahahahha they are both autistic the mom and the daughter to we got a kick out of that! Also in the night our air conditioning, something burned out so we had to go to the mission office at 2:00 in the morning to sleep, we totally thought the apartment was going to burn down. It was Hilarious!!

We had multizones this week and we learned about planning, i loved this quote, Those who fail to plan, plan to fail. Never fail to plan!! Then after Multizones Sister Mullen sister Mullen came up to me and said president was reading my past emails to him and said to ask me about them. All this week i've just had grandpa on my mind, and all the other people that have passed away and its been so hard. I was going to just talk with president cause i was having a really hard time with it but i didn't, she was a miracle yesterday.and just let me talk it out about everything that has happened. It was a true testimony to me that my heavenly father is aware of me. I am doing so much better besides that fact that my companions wont let me go out today cause ill get everyone sick. Its like getting hurt in a soccer game and watching your team play without you even thought you want to bad to play and work. Im learning lots and lots, heavenly father is just throwing everything at me but i'm grateful for it. I would not trade this experience for anything in the whole world. Please please pray for us!!! LOVE YOU ALL!!!:)

Hermanita Gates:)